The conditioning beneath the condition

I often speak to the conditioning beneath the health condition.

It's a fascinating play on words - at least to me. Though I find this the case with much of our language.

Let's explore what I mean by this...

When I hold someone in the practice of pulling up the energetic roots beneath their autoimmune symptoms, one of the most common experiences is a feeling of constriction or tightness in the throat or jaw - the energy centre connected to truth and expression.

This is a pattern I've unpacked deeply within myself, so I'll use myself as an example of what can emerge when we take the journey of unpacking the deeper energetic layers beneath physical symptoms.

As I've explored the energetic constriction I've felt in my throat centre, what surfaced were deep feelings of not being heard, seen, understood, or held in my expression earlier in life.

Specifically, my messy emotions, "inconvenient needs", and big opinions were not well-received by the adults around me.

I used to "call out" anything that didn't feel right - including punishments or consequences - and, as you can probably imagine, this created friction with the conditioning of earlier generations.

Because we are wired for connection and rely on our caregivers for survival, I eventually learned to disconnect from all the "inconvenient" parts of myself to maintain connection with them. This is the type of conditioning I'm speaking to.

At the time, this internal disconnection felt less painful than the heartbreak of feeling rejected by them. But what I didn't realize was happening was that I began to reject my deepest truths and expression to avoid this pain.

Over time, I learned that connecting with others through a filtered, curated version of myself was safer than showing my raw truth - safer than the possibility of being unmet, misunderstood, or alone.

...All while living in the unconscious pain of deep disconnection from myself and my true feelings, needs, and desires.

This right here is the seed of the energetic pattern that can eventually begin to reflect as autoimmune dis-ease, with the body mirroring the internal rejection of self.

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The key here is that this was all unconscious. I didn't realize how deep the patterns of repression ran for me - aside from the discordance I felt in my body and eventually the constriction I felt within my throat that slowly unravelled into my conscious awareness.

These patterns were inherited.

They were imprinted.

And they ultimately reflected through every cell and system within my body.

They shaped my nervous system, my emotions, my actions (or inactions), how I perceived others, how I perceived myself, and ultimately how my body functioned.

When the patterns are pervasive, so are the symptoms.

And vice vera.

What I can see now is that the emotional pain that I had repressed was speaking through the physical pain I was experiencing in my body - not because there was something wrong with my body, but as an invitation for deeper connection, processing, and integration.

What I am sharing here is just ONE example of what can emerge when we delayer the deeper energetics beneath physical symptoms and pain.

There is a whole energetic and symbolic language in the body's feedback - specific to you - and inviting you to turn inward.

This is what I mean when I'm referring to the conditioning beneath the condition - the deeper energetic layers that are present below conscious awareness but that often reflect through the physical body.

If you'd like to explore this yourself, I warmly invite you to explore this Energetic Rooting Practice to open the lines of communication with your body and to start to bring gentle awareness to the energetic roots beneath the physical symptoms you experience.

As always, I hope this meets you where you're at.

With big love,

Natalie